I had a beautiful realization today, mid performance.
Literally my mind went into it’s own world for one second in the mist of the live music, which so happened to be “Young, Wild & Free”, the legendary artist we were performing with (Snoop Dogg), the thousands of people starring at our every movement… I closed my eyes & soaked this moment in..
I looked to the left of me & saw my close girlfriend Marquita dancing.. smiling.. living in the same moment I knew that I was experiencing. I looked to the right of me where my other beautiful girlfriend Larke was dancing.. performing.. living.
It was in this moment that I saw us all escape our realities. No matter what happened before we got on that stage in our personal lives (good or bad) our spirits were in another ecstasy. We were out of body. Living in what we have always known to be our escape from the world since we could remember. 
In that moment, I remembered where, why, & how. Why I am here. Why I am away from my home. How I am able to deal with all the traveling, late nights & early mornings. Why I am away from my loved ones. Where my heart is. Where I can always find it.
In that moment, I saw my two girlfriends remember why they are here too. I witnessed them “escaping” and it was so beautiful. Then I closed my eyes mid dance & escaped with them.
I am so thankful that I have dance.
That I found my escape. That I can feel my highest ecstasy, drug free.
My greatest wish & cause I am working towards in my lifetime.. in this world, is to express with deep passion that everyone can find their escape in their passion. Whatever it is. Whatever gives you that adrenaline rush. Whatever feeds your soul & lifts your spirit with only a rewarding feeling. With no comedowns. With no health hazards. To understand that in our passions, what we LOVE to do, we can escape our realities just for a little while. Give our souls that escape it craves when some turn to other things. If not the escape, then the feeling of pure bliss, happiness, & ecstasy. The beauty of experiencing the ecstasy through a passion is that the effect is ever lasting. The come down.. is never. It only heightens our being & the effects down the road are only.. positive. 
Photography, Training, Painting, Singing, Writing, Tennis, Basketball, Reading, Designing, Cooking, Decorating, Teaching, Producing, Acting, Skating, Musicians..
I am tired of seeing beautiful spirits be taken down a road that does nothing for them.
I know my purpose in this world is to awaken. & If I can awaken one soul to find their ecstasy in their passion, show them that it is even better than anything you think you can buy..
I will be satisfied.
<3
BN

I had a beautiful realization today, mid performance.

Literally my mind went into it’s own world for one second in the mist of the live music, which so happened to be “Young, Wild & Free”, the legendary artist we were performing with (Snoop Dogg), the thousands of people starring at our every movement… I closed my eyes & soaked this moment in..

I looked to the left of me & saw my close girlfriend Marquita dancing.. smiling.. living in the same moment I knew that I was experiencing. I looked to the right of me where my other beautiful girlfriend Larke was dancing.. performing.. living.

It was in this moment that I saw us all escape our realities. No matter what happened before we got on that stage in our personal lives (good or bad) our spirits were in another ecstasy. We were out of body. Living in what we have always known to be our escape from the world since we could remember. 

In that moment, I remembered where, why, & how. Why I am here. Why I am away from my home. How I am able to deal with all the traveling, late nights & early mornings. Why I am away from my loved ones. Where my heart is. Where I can always find it.

In that moment, I saw my two girlfriends remember why they are here too. I witnessed them “escaping” and it was so beautiful. Then I closed my eyes mid dance & escaped with them.

I am so thankful that I have dance.

That I found my escape. That I can feel my highest ecstasy, drug free.

My greatest wish & cause I am working towards in my lifetime.. in this world, is to express with deep passion that everyone can find their escape in their passion. Whatever it is. Whatever gives you that adrenaline rush. Whatever feeds your soul & lifts your spirit with only a rewarding feeling. With no comedowns. With no health hazards. To understand that in our passions, what we LOVE to do, we can escape our realities just for a little while. Give our souls that escape it craves when some turn to other things. If not the escape, then the feeling of pure bliss, happiness, & ecstasy. The beauty of experiencing the ecstasy through a passion is that the effect is ever lasting. The come down.. is never. It only heightens our being & the effects down the road are only.. positive. 

Photography, Training, Painting, Singing, Writing, Tennis, Basketball, Reading, Designing, Cooking, Decorating, Teaching, Producing, Acting, Skating, Musicians..

I am tired of seeing beautiful spirits be taken down a road that does nothing for them.

I know my purpose in this world is to awaken. & If I can awaken one soul to find their ecstasy in their passion, show them that it is even better than anything you think you can buy..

I will be satisfied.

<3

BN

Beauty of realization.

I am not mad at myself for having jumped from relationship to relationship since the day I turned 15.

I know alot of people say that is not good, but I craved the connection, the learning about someone new in such an intimate (mental & physical) way, the bonding, the lessons, the friendship, the fights, the good times, the madness, the love..

I don’t believe you will ever learn more about yourself than you do when you are in a or coming out of a relationship. The constant tests they put you through beautiful & bad. The communication, & how it is done differently with each and every person. 

No relationship will EVER be the same. And I know that is why I never gave myself more than a day, maybe 2, in between each one before going into a new one. I was intrigued by what’s next, what can I learn now, what can i experience now. 

I would not be who I am this very day without one of those experiences that I had to have built my character.

I see the lessons in all of them. Ofcourse that is not so clearly seen while being involved (what I call “in the zone”) but realizing why you were in that experience & understanding what you got out of that, has to be one of my absolute favorite feelings. 

This is the first time in my entire life that I am… single.

Maybe it’s only been 2 weeks. But it’s different this time. I can feel it with in myself.

I am more cautious. I am observing. I am not jumping. I am aware. I am taking “my time”.

I am now realizing what “I” want. What “I” need. And “I” am in no rush.

No one can tell me to take this time but myself. Because now, I am ready & I want it.

Now I see on my own, that this is what I need.

No matter what I went through in some, which are stories I might one day share through a book I plan on writing, I cherish my relationships. 

Each and every one.

I thank them.

In our lifetime, we spent that time together, to love, to experience, & most importantly to grow.

I can feel it.

This is goona be good.

And when the time comes..

whatever experience I allow into mine next, is going to be one for the books.

One I have never experienced before.

<3

BNB

oxymorons galore

Beautifully ugly.

Happily broken.

Perfectly wrong.

Blissfully bad.

Delicately strong.

Lowest high.

Highest low.

Parked while in drive.

Stay til you go.

This video inspired my flow.

<3

loved.

Whatever is done in the dark, always comes to light.
Feelings may be apparent, but always in sight.
It&#8217;s definitely not worth it if you&#8217;re not willing to fight.
When you have a good thing, hold on to it tight.
It really shouldn&#8217;t matter who&#8217;s wrong or who&#8217;s right.
Understanding is to Solution as Growth is to Height
Don&#8217;t taste the apple if you don&#8217;t want the bite
Make a difference today you can remember tonight
Be the peacemaker &amp; help to unite
The differences define us, not just what we like
Words like these are stronger than might 
*takes a deep breathe*
God, i love to write.

xo
BN

Whatever is done in the dark, always comes to light.

Feelings may be apparent, but always in sight.

It’s definitely not worth it if you’re not willing to fight.

When you have a good thing, hold on to it tight.

It really shouldn’t matter who’s wrong or who’s right.

Understanding is to Solution as Growth is to Height

Don’t taste the apple if you don’t want the bite

Make a difference today you can remember tonight

Be the peacemaker & help to unite

The differences define us, not just what we like

Words like these are stronger than might 

*takes a deep breathe*

God, i love to write.

xo

BN

A Beginning. An End. & All over again.

Sometimes lovers are meant for us only at certain periods of our lives. That is why we need to let go when we feel God is telling us its over. Because maybe that persons purpose in our life has been served & now, as to keep evolving, a new one is meant to come for the next phase in our lives. This is not always the case, & i do believe in some lovers being soulmates, lasting til our hearts stop beating. But maybe that is my point.. we need to accept & let go of past loves that we feel God has given us signs to end, as to always keep a fresh new door open for the soulmate i believe we are all destined to meet.

I believe this goes for friends too. Some friends are meant for us only at certain periods in our lives. & then when there is a falling out, or growth apart, our instant reaction is to fix that but maybe, & actually alot of the time, that person filled their purpose in our lives already, being apart of that one phase in our lives where we needed them & now due to evolving, when a seperation arises we need to let go & let in the next set of friends that adapts more to who we have evolved into.

Again, there are those select few that don’t apply to this. But my point being mainly to say that it is okay when people grow apart. That does not mean you don’t love them or want them in your life anymore. It all falls into the act of evolving & that it is okay when the love or friendship is no longer the same over time. It simply means you have grown. & that person was there exactly at the period of time in which they were meant to be. My point of this is to say that we don’t need to hold on or try to save something that is meant to end. Endings can be beautiful because that only means a new beginning is to come. When we hold on to endings that are meant to end it can keep us from the new beginning we are meant to begin.

I am in my hotel bathroom in the south of France & had a DEEP urge to write this before i went to bed, so maybe someone out there put it in the universe that they needed to read something like this… :) at least that is always what i am hoping. 

<3

B.N.

When you contain a light within you, that beams &amp; shines, people are going to do either 2 things:
One, They will want to be around your light &amp; embrace it. Love the energy, passion, happiness you give &amp; want to surround themselves around that kind of positivity/uplifting beauty.
Or..
They will be frightened by it, intimidated, &amp; to feel comfortable around it, will attempt to dim it. 
So you listen to me you beaming lights out there..
Never.. EVER.. by any circumstance allow a dimmer to be in your life/environment.
They can be hard to seek out, but once you get a feeling, follow it &amp; make no excuses.
Sometimes, &amp; this is usually the case, dimmers really are happy for you/ want to be around your light, but their own jealousy for not having it or knowing how to have it may turn them around into dimmers because that is the only way they can be around your light.
If this is the case &amp; you notice this, give them a chance. Suggest things to help them shine brighter in the best way possible geared towards who they are. If they are up to your suggestions &amp; begin to open up in a positive way, don&#8217;t cut them out &amp; be the leader you are naturally, for them. People that have this light are never insecure about sharing their ways because they know no matter what, nobody can be them but them, as nobody can be you but you!
The good thing about being a light is that nobody else can truly dim it unless you allow it to be dimmed..
so to all my fellow lights..
SHINE ON! 
And forever, show your glow.

A little message from your..
-BamBam (Brinn Nicole)

When you contain a light within you, that beams & shines, people are going to do either 2 things:

One, They will want to be around your light & embrace it. Love the energy, passion, happiness you give & want to surround themselves around that kind of positivity/uplifting beauty.

Or..

They will be frightened by it, intimidated, & to feel comfortable around it, will attempt to dim it. 

So you listen to me you beaming lights out there..

Never.. EVER.. by any circumstance allow a dimmer to be in your life/environment.

They can be hard to seek out, but once you get a feeling, follow it & make no excuses.

Sometimes, & this is usually the case, dimmers really are happy for you/ want to be around your light, but their own jealousy for not having it or knowing how to have it may turn them around into dimmers because that is the only way they can be around your light.

If this is the case & you notice this, give them a chance. Suggest things to help them shine brighter in the best way possible geared towards who they are. If they are up to your suggestions & begin to open up in a positive way, don’t cut them out & be the leader you are naturally, for them. People that have this light are never insecure about sharing their ways because they know no matter what, nobody can be them but them, as nobody can be you but you!

The good thing about being a light is that nobody else can truly dim it unless you allow it to be dimmed..

so to all my fellow lights..

SHINE ON! 

And forever, show your glow.

A little message from your..

-BamBam (Brinn Nicole)

letters with spaghettio&#8217;s
tag! you&#8217;re it
simon says go
buildin my dream with my lego&#8217;s
i&#8217;ll trade you this for some of those
write you a note if i like you
circle yes if you like me too
i am rubber, you are glue
my magic 8 ball says were through
but my hand made fortune teller
says we&#8217;re meant to be together
so i guess were gettin married
let&#8217;s play house and have fake babies!
damn, those really were the days..
but who said they had to end?



let&#8217;s have a play date again :)


-Brinn Nicole (BamBam)

letters with spaghettio’s

tag! you’re it

simon says go

buildin my dream with my lego’s

i’ll trade you this for some of those

write you a note if i like you

circle yes if you like me too

i am rubber, you are glue

my magic 8 ball says were through

but my hand made fortune teller

says we’re meant to be together

so i guess were gettin married

let’s play house and have fake babies!

damn, those really were the days..

but who said they had to end?

let’s have a play date again :)

-Brinn Nicole (BamBam)

(Source: living-forever-reckless, via cpazlife)

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